My husband and I are planning on doing a cruise soon. He is super excited and cannot wait to go! Why do I say he and not we? Well he said he wants to buy me a dress for formal night. I know I should be excited right? My husband actually wants to take me shopping for a dress! The problem is this absolutely does not sound like a good time to me. Clothes shopping is stressful and emotional for an overweight person. It is very hard to find something that makes you feel good when you are so unhappy with your body.
Don’t get me wrong, I am no different from any other woman. I love dresses, I love shoes and make-up. The fact that my husband would actually want to dress me up is wonderful. I just wish it wasn’t so terrifying. There is no dress that I am going to put on and feel good in. I am sure there will be something that I can find and make due with.
I would love to say that body shaming does not affect me. I wish I could tell you that no matter how fat I am that I know I am beautiful. I know there are many people that are overweight and happy with themselves just the way they are. That is just not true for me. Besides not liking the way I look with all this weight on me the way the weight makes me feel is a huge factor. I feel tired, sluggish, and it is harder for me to do things physically than it is for someone at a healthier weight. All of these things combined make a night in a dress and heels sound awful.
This is one of the many reasons I have to be on fire for health and fitness. This is why making goals, personal growth, eating healthy and getting fitness in are so important to me. Life has thrown a lot of obstacles in my way and I let those obstacles get me to this place and determine my fate. No more. My emotions will not decide what goes into my body. I will eat food for fuel and energy to get me where I want to be!
Next year I want to go on a cruise and be excited to buy new clothes, a dress maybe even a bathing suit. I will get there. I know I will. I am excited to share my journey with you so I have included a picture of me today when I was out for a walk. This way down the line in future posts you can visibly see my progress!
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